Sunlight is wrapped in sunlight. It lays down, tired at summer’s
end. I’m standing in it as if framed by sunlight itself.
Maybe it's a mystery, but light frames light just as surely as
light frames the One who wraps Himself in it, and as the Son of God is the
Light of the world, and as I am wrapped in Him. Light frames light like that and somehow my life becomes a frame
through which others see Him.
Light Frame
A gust of wind gathers
leaves, and I think it’s odd that they are gathered and not scattered.
It’s a holy moment,
somehow.
Leaves roll out a red carpet for autumn’s fame.
God is in this moment.
His presence frames my heart.
There is a holy language that comes as a breath, and gathers what
is naturally prone to scatter within me. His language, it frames
the prayers that escape my language. Sometimes words whisper like leaves
rustle, and right now that's how I hear it.
God is present in this leafy moment, and in the words. Something
about standing in the presence of the one true Light-framed by Him-redeems
time till a moment seems to stand still because God is and I Am is
the name of Light.
Stand in the Light and
redeem time.
Is there any other way? Doesn't the Lord say it, something like
"Walk as children of light. Have nothing to do with darkness. See then,
and redeem the time because the days are dark"? He does say something like
this in Ephesians 5:8-16.
So I'm redeeming time,
standing in the light. Walking in it. Saving up moments, to know more God in
them.
More God moments-that's
what I want.
I want to see more God in
my husband striding through the front door on long legs to kiss me in the
kitchen.
More God in my daughter
making me nervous behind the wheel with a driver’s permit in her pocket.
More God in my daughter
becoming a college girl and framing words between laughter over the latest
news.
More God in my son being
husband for six months and still sitting so comfortably and familiarly at the
kitchen table that I nearly forget he has a place of his own and won’t be
staying for dinner.
I want to see light-framed
moments.
This is the frame.
He is the frame.
There is nothing outside
Him that I want. I want only what He frames. Nothing else is worth giving the
time of day to, because isn’t He the only frame that can frame time and life
and days and eternity? And everything good?
He is.
He is eternal and life and
good.
He is good, and I need more
moments wrapped in good.
I'm trying to redeem time
because God is good, and how else will I know He is good than in the framework
of moments wrapped up in Him? And by Him?
Frame
Saving up moments, it's a wide-awake on-purpose sort of thing to
attempt. I don't know how much time I loose, or moments I miss. Really, I don't
want to know. What I do know, and want to know more, is that redeeming time is
something only the Redeemer can do.
It's also something I can
take an active part in doing. Thing is, when I take part in this mystery-when
I do what He tells me to do, like take my run-away thoughts captive and tame my
tongue-it begins to happen. I feel it.
I've hammered nails and pulled nails and hammered again till my
hand's frozen to the hammer when life's shaken me up too much to aim right but
I'm near desperate to nail something down and hope it looks like a frame of
reference when I shake like a leaf in a gust of wind because, guess what? The
days are evil and that's why it's important to redeem time as God says to.
"Redeem time, for the days are evil," He says in Ephesians 5:6.
I practice.
It's what I call active faith because a
living faith is active just like anything living is active.
My faith is
stronger for the practice, and my hope is surer, too; but even better is
this-while I'm swinging the hammer, God is showing me that the frame is.
The
frame is. Period.
The frame of God in the flesh of His Son was nailed and hung
up on the cross and somehow I'm in Him and His Spirit's in me and together we
make a complete picture in this framework.
His frame is the only frame, the only reference for life and time
and redemption of both-and for me.
The holy frame, framed by
sin and nailed by it, fit joy right into Himself when nails pierced into
Him. Somehow He saw joy.
He saw joy! It was set before Him. He didn't look away from it, but
endured because of it, while time itself was redeemed and He gave up His Spirit
before His body had the time to die.
Somehow joy redeems time.
I’ve heard it said that when we look down, we can’t see anything
in the upward peripheral, but when we look up, we see everything in our
peripheral. maybe joy is seen like that, in the searching upward look when the
world is calling out, “Save yourself, not time! Come down to earth and forget
eternity!" And things like, "Remember, you’re mortal. Let that be the
framework of your life!" That's because the world doesn’t know this joy
which redeems time. I know of it,a little. I want to know more.
I had an unexpected moment
today—well, not unexpected exactly. It was a hoped-for moment: a hummingbird,
blue-gray. It’s silly, but I admit asking God for a hummingbird. I did—last
week. I did not ask because I have some sort of hummingbird fascination. I
don’t. But hummingbirds, they flap winged blur, yet remain still in the middle
of air as if seventy wing-beats racing against one second actually save enough
time to sip the sweet from the red.
I asked for a
hummingbird, "It would just be nice, God. That's all." The
request perched, fragile on delicate feet. I wanted to see it happen-to see what it looks like to drink the sweetness right out of Him, nectar
of strength.
He cares, God does. I wanted to see it happen.
And I did. I saw it, the
hummingbird. She flitted not in June sun, but through fifty-five-degree October
morning mist. She darted between peach tree leaves turning yellow. I saw her
twice again, as I stood at kitchen sink. She hovered and sipped from a single
rose on a cane of rebel blossoms that have turned wild.
She sips from the wild, my eyes smile in holy prayer.
Sip long the sweet nectar of God.
Light is frame for
this.
written by: Carolyn-Elizabeth Roehrig
(adapted from my book, PISTEUO! Connecting with God's Heart)
(adapted from my book, PISTEUO! Connecting with God's Heart)
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